A Poem From Inside My Head 1/4/2002 7:37:00 PM

purple_stardust

Don't come in here, I warn you.
Please don't come inside.
It's not that you aren't welcome;
I just don't want to be the tour guide.

You want to get in my head,
Know the feelings stored on the shelf,
But it's dark and cold and lonely inside.
I don't want to be here myself.

Dark creatures scurry all around
From cracks and corners and holes,
Constantly whispering of impending doom
And searching for wayward souls.

Five scrawny punks are plugged in and turned up,
Singing songs filled with hate and fear.
The words you can't understand,
The message you can't help but hear.

There's a foul odor around here;
It's the stench of rotting dreams
And the soft ripping sound of a future
Coming apart at the seams.

There are a thousand screaming maniacs
Advocating death and delusion.
They wield vicious thoughts like axes
And add to the confusion.

A little girl cries for her mother;
She's lost and terrified.
She doesn't know how she got into this place
Or how to get back outside.

An angry young poet sits alone
Crying that he has no choice.
Long after his death, the walls will echo
The sound of his tear-soaked voice.

There's a shapeless mass in the shadows.
It has no eyes, no arms, no heart.
It has only teeth, and it wants my soul
To take it and maul it and rip it apart.

An old woman creeps by,
Mumbling her madness.
She was once filled with desire;
All that remains is her sadness.

Memories hang like cobwebs,
Although I can't quite see them there.
Still enough of them remains intact
To tangle and ensnare.

A lying drunk beckons me;
He wants to be my friend.
He'll show me through this labyrinth,
But he'll kill me at the end.

There is crying, laughing, moaning,
And loud pounding on one side.
Amidst the noise and mayhem,
There's no place left to hide.

There's a very high ledge in the dark,
Deadly, slick, and wet.
I've slipped and stumbled often,
But I haven't gone over... yet.

There are thieves and whores and artists,
Beggars and knights of seduction.
They all run amok and scream for attention,
Create chaos and self destruction.

So don't come in here, I warn you,
Because madmen run about
And despair lurks in the shadows,
And will not let you out.

-Mad Nessie, 1995

   

1/4/2002 7:39:00 PM

purple_stardust

So here I am, with my shiny new Live Journal. What to say. Hmmm. Well. I am Renee. I have very few interests, but many obsessions. My biggest obsession is rats. Yes, rats. I love them. I breed them. I kiss them on the lips. I also love cats, and other animals in general. I play video games. I like cheese. Someday, I would like to overthrow Wisconsin. I listen to David Bowie, The Cure, and Pink Floyd. I collect rubber ducks, Alice in Wonderland stuff, marbles and things that are round, and various other things. I like to read, but I never do. These topics, and many other equally fascinating subjects, are what I will write about in my Live Journal.

   

We're all mad here! 1/4/2002 9:37:00 PM

purple_stardust

The Cheshire Cat


You're the epitome of insane. Either you're very smart, or you're too damn stupid. The world is your playground, and everything -- and everyone -- in it is a toy for you to play with. People should be scared of you, but because you're so affable, they aren't. Tough for them.

   

Ack! I can't stop playing!!! 1/5/2002 1:27:00 AM

purple_stardust



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1/5/2002 1:41:00 AM

purple_stardust

It is 1:40am, and I am still awake, and playing with the Live Journal.
This is all Laurie's fault. Also, I want an aquarium. Also Laurie's fault. =)

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/5/2002 11:25:32 AM

We always incite each other to new heights of laziness and pet-owning! It's a symbiotic relationship.

Don't feel so bad, because now I want a cute little Siamese ratlet...
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/5/2002 11:38:20 AM

You know, as luck would have it, I should have some of those very, very soon. =)
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/5/2002 11:52:02 AM

Noooooooooooo! Don't tempt me!!!!! My willpower is absolutely nonexistent when it comes to new little shiny baby ratties, and yours are so great! But I can't play with the 35 I have now! PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE! DON'T MAKE ME TAKE ANOTHER CUTE LITTLE RAAAAAAAAAT!
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/5/2002 1:05:12 PM

Oh good grief. Would *I* do that? Would I tempt you? Would I flaunt my baby ratlets at you? Would I regail you with stories of their cute little noses and clean baby tails? Would I remind you how sweet and tickley new baby whiskers are, or about kissable little ratlet bellies? Of course not. Geez, you'd think I was some sort of evil rat pusher or something.
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/5/2002 1:27:28 PM

Yes. Yes, you would do that. Underneath your sweet exterior, you are all RAT-PUSHING POISON.

Did I mention how cool my new aquarium is? My fish swims around and around, and plays in the bubbles, and eats food, and it looks so pretty and nice. Don't you just want one of your very own? I'll bet you do. I'll bet you are just thinking how much you would like an aquarium to call your own, with little fish swimming around and around.
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/5/2002 2:05:39 PM

You are a cold, cold woman. You know, I was going to get a new sofa at tax time, and then I changed my mind and wanted a PS2, but now I think I'm gonna have to have an aquarium... with two ryukins and a wall o water. And it's ALL YOUR FAULT!

Did I mention how Sasha, the father of my upcoming Siamese dumbo litter, loves to stick his little brown nose in my ear? Wow, I bet he sure will have some sweet little babies...
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/5/2002 2:49:41 PM

People who have pets tend to live longer, while people who sit on their sofas and play video games tend to have big butts.

The choice is, of course, yours.

=D

1/5/2002 3:40:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |happy]

A wonderfully lazy Saturday. I went shopping online and ordered a pair of purple and black stripey stockings from the Spooky Boutique, and now we're crashed out playing Lunar 2: Eternal Blue. Life is good. =)

   

1/5/2002 9:52:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |apathetic]
[Current Music |Lunar 2 Soundtrack]

I'm not even sure if I'm bored or depressed. I am convinced that Rusty no longer finds me attractive. I feel trapped. I know I want more, but I'm not sure what. Every time I think I'm finally getting my shit together, I find out that I am sorely mistaken. Bah.

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/8/2002 12:04:34 AM

I'm sure you would know all that better than I would, but I didn't get that impression at all from him. You've got my sympathies, anyway; it sucks to feel trapped and unhappy. =(

1/5/2002 10:43:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |anxious]
[Current Music |Lunar 2 Soundtrack]

Still here... I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of my new Siamese dumbo litter. Trixie is 21 days today, and the poor thing looks so miserable! I have put her in the maternity cage, and now we're waiting... and waiting... and waiting... This litter should be wonderful, both of the parents are SO sweet, especially my wonderful Sasha rat.

COME ON BABY RATLETS!!! =)

   

Spork! Spork! Spork! 1/5/2002 11:52:00 PM

purple_stardust



I had suspected as much.
   

1/6/2002 1:50:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |anxious]

Still no babies, dammit. I thought she was going to go into labour, but now she is up again, and wandering around. I am getting impatient, and I know she is getting uncomfortable. It is going to be a very long night.

   

1/6/2002 9:14:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |anxious]

I finally gave up and went to bed at about 2am. I'm up now, still no babies. She does seem to have settled into one corner at this point, so I am hoping it will be soon.

   

1/6/2002 2:45:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |excited]

Trixiebelle is having babies RIGHT NOW! =)

   

1/6/2002 4:54:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |happy]

Well, I believe Trixiebelle is done having her babies. She is still cleaning them up and getting them all settled in, but I hope to lure her away later so that I can count them. What I've seen so far are so cute and tiny, and they're squeeking like mad in there! =)

   

Comments:
From: [info]wombatrat
Date: 1/6/2002 5:45:26 PM

congRATs on the babies :)
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/6/2002 7:56:52 PM

Thanks Cara! I can't wait until she stops fussing over them so *I* can look! lol =)

1/6/2002 8:14:00 PM

purple_stardust

Oh Laurieee... where are yooouuuu??? Not only do I have babies to tell you about, I'm starting to worry about you out driving around in this weather! :-\

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/6/2002 10:08:35 PM

Well, we got back home at about 7 or 8 PM, and we've been spending the whole evening assembling the cage and rearranging our bedroom to see how it will look the nicest, and stuff.

Ratlets! Must go on AIM now!

1/7/2002 10:35:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |shocked]

Holy crap. As it turns out, there were *17* babies in Trixiebelle's litter! I need to go to the store now and buy her some extra hi-protien, hi-fat goodies. Wow. 17 ratlets! =)

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/7/2002 10:46:44 AM

17 ratlets! That's amazing! 17!

I guess she let you check them?
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/7/2002 10:54:52 AM

Yeah, by this morning, she just wanted OUT! lol ... Can't say I blame her. I need to go to the grocery store today and get her goodies - meat, soy cereal, kale, avacado, etcetera. Yeah, 17 IS amazing... Wow.

1/7/2002 11:32:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |sad]

One of the babies didn't make it. It was much smaller than the others, and didn't have a milk belly when I found it. I know this happens, but I still feel awful for the little squirt. The remaining 16 seem healthy and full, so I am hoping they will all be fine.

It amazes me, when I look at that pile of squirming watermelon-coloured jellybeans, that someday they will turn into real rats. The little pink blobs with the funny translucent skin will be someday be another Sasha, or a Zackie Brown Nose, furry and strong and running amok. Simply amazing.

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/8/2002 12:11:31 AM

Yeah, that's awful. When Clarissa had her babies, I think she had about eleven of them. (She was very territorial over them and wouldn't let us count.) Only five survived, and at night, we heard crunching coming from the cage. I am sure you can imagine what that was.

It was awful! I felt so bad for the little guys who didn't make it.
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/8/2002 8:35:00 AM

Yeah. I felt awful, like maybe if I had checked on them sooner, I might have noticed a problem and been able to help. I took him away and wrapped him in tissue and put him in a little box and put him in the freezer with Ziggy and the others, who are awaiting cremation and burial. Trixie didn't seem to panic that there was one missing, so maybe she knew there was something wrong...? I don't know. I am torn now, between wanting to check on them compulsively, and being afraid to look at all. :(
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/8/2002 10:56:32 AM

I don't think there's anything you could have done, but I know what you mean about wanting to check obsessively but then not wanting to look. But I imagine that most of them will be okay.

1/8/2002 8:41:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |geeky]

I went to bed last night at about 1pm, and took my Atomic Purple Gameboy with me. Romantic, huh? I am playing Dragon Warrior 3, but I can't figure out what I'm supposed to do next, so I went back to the Pyramid to steal the Golden Claw. Now, the Claw is a great thing, and worth a lot of gold, but it is cursed, and once you steal it, you have to walk all the way back out of the pyramid, getting attacked at every step. What's more, you can't use magic in the pyramid! So I made my way down to the sarcophagus, got the Claw, and begin winding my way back, fighting mummies and shadowers at every step... and then, about halfway to the exit, I fell asleep! I woke up this morning and realised what I had done, and wanted to smack myself for going through all that only to fall asleep and lose it all. But! I went back and fished out the Gameboy from under the bed where it had fallen, and it was still on! Oh happy day! So I finished the journey and sold the Claw and saved my game and gave thanks to the Gaming Gods, wherever they may be. The moral of the story? Buy Energizer batteries - they keep going and going, even when I don't!

   

1/8/2002 9:36:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |aggravated]

Argh! Today was a long series of annoyances. I broke one of my Corning bowls. I didn't know you even *could* break them, but as it turns out, you can, and I did. More annoying, now the set is all messed up (4-piece setting for everything but bowls), so I'm going to have to replace the entire set. I had to go to three places to get my film developed; everyone's machine seemed to be broken today. I got a parking ticket, and I was only parked there for like, ten seconds - long enough to finally drop out the film! To top off an otherwise sucky day, another one of the babies died. I think maybe she is having a hard time feeding so many. =(

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/8/2002 10:48:25 PM

Yeah, I've broken Corning bowls before. They shatter into a billion tiny pieces and it's really hard to get them all up off the floor.

Your day totally, completely stunk. Tomorrow will be better!
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/8/2002 10:59:32 PM

Really??? I've had this set for about five years, and never broken one. I don't know how this one broke, really. I went to wash dishes, which I do about once per month, and it was in the pan, broken. We almost would have had to throw something else in and hit it, but nothing else was broken. Oh well. I was ready for a change anyway. This was the ivy pattern, no idea what to get next, since now we have the burner covers, salt shakers, dish towels, place mats, potpourri pot, etcetera in the ivy pattern now. Maybe a solid green? I bet Martha Stewart has a nice set of green dishes. That would work.

Anyway, I do hope tomorrow will be better. I would have to pierce my spleen, for it to be worse.
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/8/2002 11:16:33 PM

Oh! I recently saw a set of ivy dishes? Where? Where?!?!?!? Maybe it was at K-Mart, or possibly Williams-Sonoma? I can't remember!

I break dishes all the time. It's my special ninja skill.

1/8/2002 11:52:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |satisfied]

And now for some good news! I was the high bidder on a pair of size 3 Converse Chuck Taylor hi-tops! Woo hoo! They're white, and I already have a white pair, so I thought I would save these to dye, whenever my purple ones finally collapse. There is a pair of black lo-tops going off in about an hour, I think I will try for those too. It's hard to find Chucks in size 3, I have to grab them when I can.

   

1/9/2002 12:01:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |relieved]

Checked the babies this morning: so far, so good. The remaining 15 were pink and wiggley, as they should be. Trixiebelle got turkey breast with cottage cheese and apples for lunch. Life is good.

   

1/10/2002 8:38:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |irritated]

Argh! Neopets is down for maintenence! Agony! I do not like the disruption in my routine. Every morning, I get up, smoke a cigarette, drink my coffee, and go through a daily routine with Neopets. I collect my interest, play Tombola, visit the shrine, grab some omelette... And now I can't, because Neopets is down. I can't even hang out at the Guild until it's up and running again, because the Guild is down too. This bites!

   

Happy Birthday Mason! 1/10/2002 10:50:00 AM

purple_stardust

My big boy Mason turns two years old today! He is a 2-pound black berkshire dumbo, and he loves me. He props his little "elbows" up on the cage door and gazes at me until I scritch his head, and then he grooms me. Ironically, I adopted him when nobody else wanted him, because supposedly he was aggressive. I have never seen any aggression, in fact, he is one of my sweetest rats! We will be having celebratory cake with fresh blueberries and whipped cream later. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MASON!!!!!

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/10/2002 9:27:01 PM

Happy Birthday Mason,
Happy Birthday Maaaa-aaaa-aaa-son
Happy Birthday Mason
Happy Birthday, Big Fat Rat!!!!

Yaay!

Look what I bought on ebay today! 1/10/2002 8:49:00 PM

purple_stardust



I got two new pairs of Chuck Taylors (white hi-tops and black lo-tops), and an elephant hair* bracelet! I can't wait to get my new goodies! =)

* I should note that the bracelet is not genuine elephant hair; it is made from natural plant fibers. I do not support the elephant trade.
   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/10/2002 9:25:52 PM

Looks like you had a productive eBay day! I like the bracelet a lot. Actually, I like the shoes too.

Maybe I need black chucks like that... Hmmm!
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/10/2002 9:40:45 PM

*Everyone* needs a pair of black Chucks! =)

1/11/2002 10:35:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |depressed]

I need to lose weight. I used to be really skinny, and I liked it. I started gaining weight when Rusty and I got together, and now I have about 30 extra pounds that are a constant source of agony. I don't know what to do. When I was younger, I would take a lot of diet pills and just not eat. I need to do that now but -- I really like my junk food! Maybe I could do Papa Johns once per week if I din't eat the rest of the week. I also need to get back to Diet Pepsi. Coke was on sale for a long time, and I got back into the habit of buying that. Considering how much soda I drink every day, that's a big difference in calories! I also need to give up Sheetz Almond Amaretto cappachino - I swear you can *taste* the fat in this stuff. This is horrible. And exercise is out of the question - I would rather have root canal than do a sit-up. I am so screwed. =(

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/11/2002 10:52:36 AM

Renee! That's a horrible idea! Eating diet pills and not eating is so dangerous! And, speaking as someone who basically didn't eat for two years, my metabolism is so fucked up now, and it is all kinds of wrong. I have gained like thirty pounds over the last couple of years. Okay, not couple of years, more like six years. But whatever. Bleh. I feel your pain.

But! You can't just not eat! You need to eat! I know you don't cook, but if you want to lose weight, you need to simply eat less junk food and more healthy food. Less calories, more nutrients, that's the way to go. If you get pizza, eat salad with it instead of french fries, or something. And not some icky nasty salad either, with gross iceberg lettuce. A nice salad with lots of leafy greens and tomatoes and carrots and peppers and maybe some chickpeas as well.

Exercise would help, but I, like you, loathe and hate it, so I don't do it either. But how about something like walking? It's a great exercise, and it can be fun if you do stuff like walking in the park or in the woods. You can take your kids and go out exploring nature, or something. You can bird watch together, and then it will be a fun activity rather than boring exercise. Or, walk to the supermarket to pick up some ice cream. Or walk to the post office. Or whatever.

There has got to be some better, safer way to lose weight than not eating and drinking diet sodas.
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/11/2002 12:18:44 PM

I know... but the problem is, I HATE healthy foods. The only thing I like in that salad you mentioned was the tomatoes. I don't like vegetables and I don't like fruit. I don't even like meat. I like cheese. And occasionally peanut butter. If I was to try to only eat "healthy" foods, I wouldn't eat. Well... I like Minute Rice okay. Maybe I could eat Minute Rice with spray butter and salt for non-pizza dinners. And Diet Pepsi. *sigh*
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/11/2002 1:01:13 PM

Nevertheless, you cannot not eat. If you don't eat, and then you lose weight, it's because you are starving to death. Then again, if that's what you want, do it. But I don't think it's a very good idea, myself.

What about trying some new foods? Every time you go to the supermarket, buy something new. Then you might find something else that you really like. I'm fond of making veggie burgers with tomato and avocado slices on top. I know you don't like soy foods much, though. But sandwiches like that are really easy to make, since all you have to do is slice a roll, some tomato, and some avocado, put some ketchup or whatever on, and put the burger in a frying pan for about three minutes, then assemble and put some salt and pepper on the top. Basically no cooking involved, and it's very healthful too. And filling. Sean likes to make veggie burgers with hot sauce and peanut butter on the roll.

I was going to suggest you buy pizza crusts and sauce, and low-fat mozzarella (which really doesn't taste that different from the full-fat kind) and make your own pizzas, with slightly less cheese and more of other toppings, but then I remembered that your oven doesn't work. But if it ever does, that's a good idea. I make my own pizza all the time, and it's much better than pizza place pizza because I can put all kinds of junk on it.

Or how about West African Peanut-Butter soup? I seem to recall it was very easy to make, and the peanut butter flavor was very strong.

Veggie sloppy joes are really easy, too, and very yummy. (Though again you might not like them because of the soy factor). Morningstar Farms makes these veggie burger crumbles which basically cook like ground meat. Then you just add some tomato paste, water, and a packet of sloppy joe seasonings, cook on the stovetop for about ten minutes, and you have a meal right there.

And ooh, as for the soda, one thing I've found that really helps my soda cravings is flavored carbonated water! It has no sugar, so it's not bad for you, but it's still all nice and bubbly. And if you get the flavored kind, it actually tastes good too. I like the mandarin orange the most.

Or another idea that I've seen in a lot of cookbooks is to use better cheese that has been more aged. Then it has more flavor and you don't need to use as much of it. I don't know how practical that is in a non-cooking situation, though. Mostly I think it pretty much applies to hard cheeses like parmigian and gouda.

Anyway, those are just a few suggestions I could come up with off the top of my head. I don't know if any of them will be any help at all, since they seem to suggest foods you don't even like, but... It must be better than eating Minute Rice with spray-on fat. =)
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/11/2002 3:36:16 PM

Sean puts peanut butter on his burgers??? Thanks Laurie, that was a great diet aid! ;-P

Dragon Warrior 7, hooray! 1/11/2002 3:42:00 PM

purple_stardust



I got Dragon Warrior VII today, compliments of my ex-husband, gotta love him. I never played the Japanese version of DW7, so this will be the first "new" Dragon Warrior game I've played since the early 90's. I'm not sure I'll like the graphics (I'm very "old-school; basically, I like crappy one-dimensional graphics), but still, it's Dragon Warrior! Somethings I think I *will* like:

* Massive epic with 2 CDs, 100s of character and over 17,000 pages of game text.
* Sidequests, hidden mini-games, collectible medals, a hidden quest and puzzles.
* Immigration system - build and populate you own city.
* Monster Park - collect and keep monsters conquered during your adventures.
* Proprietary game engine that virtually eliminates loading time during game play.

I love to collect medals (one of my favourite things about DW3), and collecting monsters sounds fun too. I can't wait to start it! We are still playing Lunar 2 (had to start over after a tragic memory card mishap), but as soon as that is done, I will start on this one. Hooray!
   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/11/2002 4:00:13 PM

Didn't you read my review of it on classic_rpgs? The graphics ARE crappy one dimensional graphics! They are VERY classic rpg.

Just quit playing Lunar right now. Just go straight to DW7. You know you want to. Lunar will be waiting for you when you return.
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/11/2002 4:47:28 PM

I DO! I DO want to! I really like Lunar, but I am so excited about DW7. The thing is though, if I start DW7, I'll forget what I was doing in Lunar. I have enough trouble switching between that and DW3! I don't know. I'm not *that* far into my new game of Lunar; I guess I could play DW7 and start Lunar over when I'm done. Right?
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/12/2002 3:35:56 AM

You will not be sorry if you play DW7 instead of Lunar. You are just going to be sucked into the game. That's all I'm going to say, for fear of giving it all away.

I've been playing it for more than 60 hours now! And I'm still not done! But I FINALLY found the TinyMedal Collector! It took a long time...
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/12/2002 8:09:04 AM

You've been playing for 60 hours??? Wow. Dammit. I really want to play this game. Did you ever start one game, and then get another game, and start playing that, and then when you get back to the first game, you have no idea what's going on? Well, I do that all the time. I really need to finish Lunar 2. But this is Dragon Warrior. And it could take forever to get through Lunar, I'm not even through the first disc. Argh! Maybe since I'm not too far into Lunar, I could play DW7 and come back to Lunar when I'm finished with it. Right?

1/11/2002 6:06:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |nauseated]

I think I'm seriously going to go vegetarian, except for maybe fish and seafood. I am reading a post about eating rabbit meat on one of my lists, and it just made me sick. I started thinking about it, and now I'm thinking, if I wouldn't eat a bunny, why would I eat a cow? I rarely eat red meat, and I will miss my Mickey D burgers, but meat is just too fucking gross, when I think about what it IS.

   

Welcome! 1/11/2002 9:32:00 PM

purple_stardust

Welcome to Live Journal, Midnite Diva! =)

   

1/11/2002 9:36:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |blah]
[Current Music |Lunar 2 Soundtrack]

The diet commences. I had white rice for dinner... oh, whee. It's actually not a bad thing to eat. I wonder if brown/wild rice would be any more nutricious or less fattening...? I guess it doesn't matter, I don't think the brown comes in Boil-in-Bag. Oh well. Tomorrow I am going to attempt to start drinking more water. Oy vey, what is this world coming to? Next thing you know, I'll have my stupid dusty AbSlide out of the closet. :-P

   

1/12/2002 8:39:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |bored]

Bored, bored, bored. I am so bored. Rusty had to work today, and now I have nobody to play with. I suppose I could do something productive, like clean my icky rat cages, but I want to PLAY. Saturday is play day, Sunday is clean cages day. Today is Saturday - I want to play!

My ex-husband just IMed me to ask if I was going to be using my sewing machine this weekend. Well, I haven't used it since 1995, it's unlikely that I would get a wild hair up my ass THIS weekend. So he's coming over to get it; his mother needs to sew her pants. God knows we can't have her walking around without pants.

And, hideous dieter that I am, I went ahead and got my cappachino this morning. I tried to fill it up with more black coffee than usual, so maybe it won't be so bad. Still, it IS a large styrofoam vessel of sugary fat, and I should not be drinking it.

Well, off to dig out the sewing machine. Whee.

   

1/12/2002 12:31:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |amused]
[Current Music |Lunar 2 Soundtrack]

Brutus and Zorro are helping me play Lunar 2. Sasha wanted to help, but he kept peeing on the controller. This is what happens when your friends are rats. =)

   

1/12/2002 4:23:00 PM

purple_stardust




You are Nall!


Not a cat.


Take the Which LUNAR Character Are You? Quiz! by Emystica.
   

1/12/2002 5:26:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |frustrated]

I want to get a digital camera this year. Unfortunately, I understand nothing about them, and I don't really want to. What I want is for somebody to say "here, get THIS one" and me to be able to use the damned thing. Laurie, any suggestions?

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/12/2002 9:32:36 PM

Some stuff: most digital cameras don't take pictures that are nearly as nice as the ones taken by regular cameras. The ones that take the best pictures will have a higher megapixel number. For example, 2.1 megapixels is better than 1 megapixel. (A megapixel is 1000 pixels, and uh, I think it's per square inch I think, though I'm not sure. So a 1 megapixel camera has 1000 pixels psi. A 2.1 megapixel cam has 2100 pixels psi. Obviously the more pixels you have in an area, the better the final picture is going to be, as more pixels will allow for more detail.)

Sony Mavica cameras (the kind my mom and I have) are really convenient because you can save the pictures directly to a floppy disk, then pop the disk right into your floppy drive and work with them. HOWEVER, the cameras are really large -- much bigger than a regular camera. Plus, you can only save from 15-50 pictures on the floppy, depending on what quality and size settings you use. My camera is great for taking quick snapshots, pictures of rats, pictures of eBay stuff, etc, but I wouldn't use it for art photos or anything.

Other kinds of digital cameras have memory cards, on which you save the pictures. Then you have to transfer the pictures from the flash card to your hard drive, and then you can work with them there, or save them to floppy, or whatever. I think you can store a lot more photographs on this kind of card. But it seems less convenient to me. This kind of camera tends to be smaller, too, which might be a good thing, depending on what you're using it for.

My advice is: Go to Best Buy or some place like that and mess around with their camera selection! See what you like and what you can afford, and then come home, and look up reviews of that particular model online. See if most people think it's pretty good or a complete piece of crap. Amazon.com is really good for looking up reviews of stuff. If most people think it's pretty good, buy it, use it until it breaks, and be convinced that you got the best one.
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/12/2002 10:21:32 PM

I think the Sony Mavica is the one... I like the floppy disk idea WAY better than cables and cards. I don't want it for print anyway (I have a Canon Rebel SX for that), just to show people quick rats pics, and to sell stuff on ebay. They had one that would acyually make little MPEG movies, which would be *really* cool, but I think that one was out of my price range. Thanks Laurie!

1/13/2002 9:51:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |pleased]

Well, I fixed Rusty's dinner last night, which included chunks of cheese (sharp chedder and colby jack, sob), but I was good and didn't eat any of it. I had rice again, and even had two glasses of water yesterday! Whoo hoo! I haven't drank that much water since I was pregnant. I also used the stupid nasty AbSlide yesterday, and again this morning. I'm not sure I'm doing it right though, and I've lost the instructions. Still, I am trying. I guess I should buy another scale... if I'm going to all this agony to lose weight, it would be nice to know if it is working. Maybe this week.

   

Baby Check! 1/13/2002 11:59:00 AM

purple_stardust

I checked the babies' genders and fur this morning. I have 8 boys (4 rex, 4 smooth) and 7 girls (2 rex, 5 smooth). 4 of them are rather runt-ish, so I've dyed their tails red so I can keep an eye on them and see how they grow in comparison to the others.

   

1/13/2002 2:14:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |accomplished]

Alright! Rat cages have been cleaned! I rearranged their cages and installed their new purple hammocks, and Rusty is vaccuuming up the three inches of Sanichips on the carpet now. I do believe it's time for some gaming! =)

   

1/13/2002 6:48:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |happy]

I fixed chicken drumsticks in apple juice for the rats this evening. Now they are passed out all over the place, fat and happy. I love my rats. :)

On a related note, I also love Sanichips! I was getting really pissed about the aspen shavings; they stick like burrs to my old carpeting and you can't vaccuum them up. We switched to Sanichips a few weeks ago, and they're great! Not only do they look nicer and more comfortable, but they vaccuum up! Must... get... more... Sanichips!

   

1/13/2002 9:17:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |pleased]

I decided when I started this diet, that on ONE day per week, I could eat something fun and cheesey. I picked Sunday, because that is the day I clean rat cages, so it would be sort of like a reward, plus I'm too tired/lazy on Sunday to cook. Anyway. So this evening I had ten glorious, deliciously greasey mozzerella sticks from Anthony's. Yum! The good part is, I could have ordered something much worse; this seems like a lot, but it's actually pretty reasonable for me.

I also used the AbSlide today (3 minutes x 3 times) and drank THREE glasses of water. If this works, I am so getting my belly button pierced. =)

   

1/14/2002 3:38:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |disappointed]

Argh! I was doing so well, and then I ate two Hot Pockets for lunch. Unfortunately, I still have junk food around the house that needs to be used before I can really do this. My cappachino addiction is another problem, but I will work on that in time. Crap. On a brighter note, I am up to 50 "slides" with the AbSlide! I have done that three times so far today, will try for two more before bedtime. I am so sore, but that's good, at least I know it's doing *something* ...

   

1/14/2002 10:03:00 PM

purple_stardust

One of my babies is a runt. She is much tinier than the others, and I don't think she is developing quite as quickly as her siblings. We had them all out playing with them, and I pointed out the little girl's runtiness to Rusty, who took her away and told me to stop picking on her, and that HE would raise that one! Not bad for a guy who, two years ago, did NOT want pet rats! =)

   

The Battle of the Bulge 1/15/2002 9:58:00 AM

purple_stardust

The war rages on. I have all but given up on the actual dieting, or at least the "eat only rice" part. Unfortunately, I have a cheese addiction, and I just can't do it. I am going to try to just eat less, and drink Diet Pepsi instead of regular Coke. Maybe I'll even try to eat an occasional veggie. *gag*

I continue to use the AbSlide. I'm up to 50 reps, 6 times per day. This damned thing better be doing SOMETHING, or I'm gonna have to get midevil on somebody's ass.

   

1/15/2002 4:11:00 PM

purple_stardust



These are my favourite blue jeans ever. They are a pair of size 5 button-fly Palmettos. I've had them forever, and until I got pregnant with my daughter, they still fit. I want to wear my jeans again.
   

1/16/2002 12:15:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |sore]

They say that some people have addictive personalities. I am one of these people. If I smoke, I smoke too much. If I drink, I drink too much. If I eat, I eat too much. And I never would have thought it, but I have actually become a compulsive AbSlider. I will actually jump up and run over there and exercise, even if I am in the middle of something. It's bizarre. Don't get me wrong; it's GOOD. I *need* to do it, I *need* to lose this baby belly. But it's just so damned WEIRD. I HATE to exercise. My entire midsection is sore, and has been since I started this silliness. And still, I do it. I just hope this is accomplishing something more than misery and exhaustion.

   

1/17/2002 1:56:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |bored]

Well, they turned our cable off Monday; some crap about not paying the bill for three months - picky, picky, picky - so I went out and paid that today. Paid my THREE parking tickets. I even paid the electric and gas and phone bills - I'm on a roll! I got some film developed - baby human and baby ratlet pics. I even managed to exercise.

So now I'm home and bored and I need to go mess with my pictures in Photoshop but I really don't feel like doing that, and I have a ton of email to answer, but I don't feel like doing that either, and I have a pile of dishes that need to be washed but I *certainly* don't feel like doing THAT, so here I sit at my computer, doing nothing at all. Very productive. I wouldn't mind something to eat, but I'm not really in the mood for anything we have here.

I guess I could play Lunar 2 until the cable is turned back on; I want to get it finished so I can start DW7. I don't know what to do. I'm so bored.

   

1/17/2002 2:30:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |blah]

Still bored. Even more than bored. I am blah. Blah AND bored. Both. I am so blah that I can't even work up enough energy to get a glass of Diet Pepsi to break the monotony of the umpteen glasses of water I've had today, and I am so bored that I am looking at other peoples' journals and then their friends' journals and then their friends' journals, until I don't know who's journal I'm looking at but it certainly sounds like they're having more fun than I am. I have no friends. I have no life. I am BLAH.

   

The next Vitakraft Spokesbaby? 1/17/2002 11:52:00 PM

purple_stardust

   

1/18/2002 1:24:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |productive]

Ugh, what a day. I went to the supermarket, which I despise with burning, seething passion. I'm still on my weight loss kick, so I decided to buy some nice lo-cal veggies and stuff, eat healthy, all that rot. So I bought lettuce, tomatoes, baby carrots, raw potatoes, good stuff like that. Fresh veggies are so expensive!

I swear, there is a government conspiracy to kill us. They tell us to eat healthy foods, and then they charge ten times as much for them, so that we can't actually afford them. Why? Because they want us to grow up, get a job, pay taxes, and then drop dead before we're old enough to collect social security. Those bastards.

Anyway, then I went to the health food store (also too expensive) and bought soy nuts and dried fruits for the rats, and seseme sticks and Organics lip balm and Tom's of Maine toothpase for me. I had the misfortune to run into a woman who's kids I used to babysit. She talked to me, and I hate it when people do that. She works there now, which means I'm gonna have to find another health food store. She isn't a bad person, she's just *really* weird, and I don't like talking to people that I know.

And finally, I went to Software Etc. and bought the Prima guide for DW7 and yet *another* lighted cover for my Atomic Purple Gameboy. I think this is my third. I don't know what I do to them, but I go though 'em. Oh cool, and it came with batteries! Oh, and I also got another controller for my Sega Genesis. I go through those, too.

And my cable is back on! Life is good. =)

   

Lunchtime! 1/18/2002 2:59:00 PM

purple_stardust

I'm eating salad: iceburg lettuce, tomatoes, cumcumbers, and baby carrots with fat-free catalina and a slice of rye bread. Obviously, hell has frozen over.

   

1/18/2002 8:49:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |optimistic]

Well, I have been totally convinced lately that Rusty isn't "in love" with me, and doesn't find me attractive anymore. We had a long talk this evening though, and I feel a lot better about our relationship. This is the one man that I've ever known who hasn't bored me after six months, the only man to even come close to understanding me, the only one to ever be a challenge... I hope we can be happy together.

   

1/19/2002 9:27:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |content]
[Current Music |Lunar 2 Soundtrack]

It's snowing like crazy here. We've gotten our coffee and cigarettes for the weekend, and now we've settled in to play Lunar 2. As much as I hate snow, I DO like the prospect of a whole weekend with nothing to do but play video games. :)

   

1/19/2002 8:55:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |melancholy]
[Current Music |Lloyd Cole - Don't Look Back]

Weird mood. Wondering where I would be if I'd done things differently. I do that a lot. I'm not even sure I would want to be somewhere else in the grand scheme of things, but still I wonder. I love Lloyd Cole but he does bad things to my head.

   

1/20/2002 12:33:00 AM

purple_stardust




you have weird things sticking out of your head, you have no plump lips...
your inner mana is just not himself. take the quiz. here.

   

Comments:
From: [info]ratlymanor
Date: 1/20/2002 12:53:08 AM

Huh? Is that Mana from Malice Mizer? I hear they're really good, but I've never heard them.

That is a really weird quiz.

1/20/2002 10:57:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |lazy]

Another wonderful day to do absolutely nothing, which, as luck would have it, is my favourite thing to do! I need to take pictures of my ratlets (two weeks old today!), but after that, it's laying on the floor and finishing up Lunar 2 for me!

At least, I *hope* we'll be able to finish Lunar 2... we're having some trouble. We're to the final part, the showdown in Petagulia. The first part is a maze that leads to a Goddess Tower. This is the part we're having trouble with. The monsters in the maze are nasty (and fast, hard to run), and you need to use magic to kill them. The problem is, we're running out of magic before we can reach the Goddess Tower. If we could make it to the GT, we could heal and save, and go on to battle the Fake Althena, and life would be good. But we keep running out of magic. Argh.

   

1/20/2002 2:14:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |irritated]

Dammit! I want to play Lunar 2, but Pittsburgh is playing Baltimore in the play-offs today, so of course we must watch that first. Argh! Oh well, at least Pittsburgh is winning. Still, I would rather be slaying monsters.

   

1/20/2002 8:13:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |lazy]

Well, I never did get around to playing Lunar 2, and now we're watching the Golden Globe Awards. We watch a lot of awards shows, and I don't know why. We don't watch any of the shows that win (Sopranos, Sex in the City, West Wing), and we've never even heard of the nominated movies. Speaking of Sex in the City, I would just like to point out that Sarah Jessica Parker is about the ugliest damn woman I've ever seen. Egad, she's homely.

   

Comments:
From: [info]ayzalove
Date: 1/21/2002 9:40:48 PM

I agree dammit!

That chick IS ugly! UGLY AS A PIE CRUST! UGH doesn't it just IRK that they ride her crack to be some kind of sex symbol? She's only as big as my hand, where are the hips? Where are the boobs? Where is the boodie? And that face...with that mole... let's not even go there... that's a whole new post!
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/21/2002 10:06:25 PM

Re: I agree dammit!

THANK YOU! I never understand it when they talk about her being beautiful - I always wonder if they're on crack! The woman is homely at best, and usually it's worse than that. Another one I never understood: Tori Spelling! If I looked like that girl, I would be too embarrassed to leave the house. Teri Hatcher is another one. What's with all the ugly women, and why does nobody in Hollywood see it???
From: [info]ayzalove
Date: 1/21/2002 10:08:59 PM

Re: I agree dammit!

I don't know but I suggest we start a boycott to anything anyone ugly is in... of course that would then elimiate a lot of shows and movies because when you start thinking of the ugly guys who are stars... well... that about shuts it down! LOL
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/21/2002 10:32:43 PM

Re: I agree dammit!

Well, ugly wouldn't even bother me so much, but hideous people that everyone says are beautiful, that bugs me. It's like Drew Barrymore; she isn't pretty, and no one pretends she is. And it doesn't matter anyway, because she has talent. But SJP, who has very little talent as far as I can see, gets all this "she's beautiful" crap, like they know she can't act but they're gonna try to sell her to us anyway. And sadly, a lot of people seem to be buying it.
From: [info]ayzalove
Date: 1/21/2002 10:57:55 PM

Re: I agree dammit!

Ok you have a point there. It's not the ugly people it's the ones who get a beautiful KUDOS who don't deserve it. I highly doubt we'll see Tom Green on the cover of People as one of the Sexiest Men of America but SJP will probably be in the 50 Most Beautiful People issue. BLECH, pass me a bucket.

Playing with my head... 1/21/2002 12:08:00 PM

purple_stardust

I just took a personality test (http://www.haleonline.com/psych/) that is supposed to be like a condensed version of the Myers-Briggs test. This is what it said about me:

INTP (Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving)

You're on a quest for logical purity...you're motivated to examine universal truths and principles...always asking "Why?" and "Why not?"...can focus with great intensity on your interests...you appreciate elegance and efficiency in thought processes and demand it in your communication...

You might appear low key in appearance and approach, you're hard as nails when challenging a truth...you don't like to deal with the obvious...at your best when developing unusual or complex ideas...you can be an under- achieving but very capable student...if you don't like a rule, you're quick to challenge it and find flaws in it -- this could make you somewhat of a rebel...if you like the rule, though, you have a respect for it and go along with it...

A relentless learner in areas that hold your interest...you might seem "lost in thought" to others...you tend to connect unrelated thoughts...you would rather be the architect of a plan than the implementer of it...you need a private, quiet workplace that allows for flexible independence... would rather organize ideas than people....

You tend to stay away from traditional leadership roles, and would rather lead with your ideas...you don't get emotionally involved, but rather tend to follow logical reasoning.....leisure has two dimensions to you: first, you like to concentrate and reflect on conceptual matters -- second, you like to take risks in the external world (like skydiving?)...

You like to read, think, watch TV, play with computers..(and post on the Storm Palace message bases).. sometimes you'd rather do these types of things than hang around other people...you don't necessarily like "best sellers" or "must see" movies because you don't trust people's opinion on what's "popular" and would rather make a value judgment for yourself....

Love, for you, has three distinct phases: falling in, staying in, and getting out. falling in love is a loss of rationality for you, and you fall HARD...an all or nothing phenomenon....

The "staying in love" phase is where you start to evaluate the relation- ship's structure and form. You may withdraw at this point because you're moving toward your most customary inward style and nature. A lot of the open affection stops....the giddy state changes... The "falling out of love" part (which doesn't always happen) results from an analysis of the real expectations of the realationship and needs of the relationship. Often an undefined line is crossed that neither of you knew about in advance. However, if you end it, you'll keep the relationship going as a friend in some capacity if you have a reason....

Pitfalls: don't focus too much on the inconsistencies of others...try being friendly and showing appreciation of others...being competent is very important to you, and you could be too hard on yourself....don't let your emotions take control -- you could have outbursts or appear hypersensitive...

   

1/21/2002 10:07:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |excited]

I'm almost done Lunar 2... we fought the Fake Althenea and now we're at Zophar's Keep but we haven't made it through the dungeon yet. Still, we're *almost* there... I want to play it NOW, but Rusty wanted to watch some silly-ass Alien movie. I don't know yet if I'm going to bother with the epilogue or just move on to DW7.

And my ratlets have EYEBALLS!!!!! =)

   

1/22/2002 10:52:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |anxious]

There is another breeder that I've had a working relationship with for over a year. She has never been to my home, and I would prefer to keep it that way, as she tends to be hyper-critical. Not only am I fairly certain that my home and rattery wouldn't be "up to snuff" by her standards, I have an overwhelming social phobia.

However, lately she has been saying she would like to come visit, and implying that she is offended that I haven't invited her. I haven't asked her, because I don't want her here. The thought of having her here literally makes me feel sick. She seems to think I should invite her because we have a friendly relationship; I feel like it would be going to my dentist's home. I am happy with our professional relationship, I don't want her to be a friend. So far, I have been able to stall her and make excuses.

The problem is, we need to meet soon, and so she has basically invited herself here this weekend, and I would look like an asshole if I said she couldn't come. I know I don't have to let her, but as the breeding community is so small, I really can't afford to piss her off. I don't know what to do, and I feel really sick on my stomach.

   

Comments:
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/22/2002 1:18:35 PM

I'm not sure who it is you're talking about, but I can muster a few guesses, and I'm fairly certain that the very first one would be right. (If you want to tell me, email me privately -- that way, no one else will know. Not that I'm asking who it is.)

Okay, first of all, that is just hyper-rude to invite yourself over to someone else's house. I too am completely socially phobic and the idea of having most people in my house also makes me feel rather sick and definitely uncomfortable, so I can completely understand where you're coming from. I think it's ridiculous that she would invite herself over.

Secondly... well, no, I think I've only got comments up to firstly. Still, that is totally ridiculous and rude and overstepping boundaries to invite yourself over to someone's house, when they don't want you there.

Maybe you could manufacture an illness. Or, say something like, "I feel friendly towards you, but I am very uncomfortable with inviting people over to my home. I hope you will understand my problem. Perhaps we could meet at some other location."

(Though, if it's who I think it is, I doubt she'd be very happy with something like that...)

Anyway, that sucks, so you have my complete sympathy.
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/22/2002 2:16:22 PM

It IS who you think it is, and no, she'll not be happy about it. We've been through this before, and I've always managed to blow her off with fake relatives coming to visit and imaginary holiday plans. I'm running out of reasonable excuses! I even tried to tell her once why I was uncomfortable about it, but of course she had a hundred counter arguments.

I guess the easiest thing to do would be just to let her visit, and make her judgements, and be done with it. I am such a social retard, I know, it's just, my home is important to me; it's the one place where I feel comfortable. And I know it is completely rude of her to invite herself, but on the other hand, I kind of *need* to maintain a somewhat friendly relationship with her.

Ugh. This sucks. =(
From: [info]ayzalove
Date: 1/22/2002 2:56:46 PM

Well HELL!

No wonder you feel anxious, someone is coming into a space of yours that you find sacred and someone who you obviously don't feel will just love you for you in a sense, instead she'll be there to make judgments, comments.

I personally would not let someone in my home that gives me these feelings. I've been there and have done that and it only made matters worse AFTER they are there. I think it's very rude that you've stated your case about how you feel to some degree and this person had a hundred responses instead of backing off and knowing her place. ARGH! Home training! No home training!!!

I hope you make a decision you feel completely comfortable with... do you want me to come over and drive by on her ass? LMAO
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/22/2002 4:44:34 PM

Re: Well HELL!

Yeah! What she said! What this breeder is doing is like school on a Sunday! (No class!)

This is not really a business that you're running. It's something you are doing out of your own home. Anyone with any of your rats can see that you are breeding friendly, even-tempered, healthy animals, and there is no reason why anyone should feel the need to push their way into your home.

If she's going to talk, let her talk. I think most people will understand that the fact that you're a breeder doesn't automatically mean that you have to open your house to any number of people who invite themselves in. And that does not mean that you're running a substandard rattery.

But, that's just my take on it, and I'm not the one who will have to deal with her, so...
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/22/2002 5:49:57 PM

Thanks Laurie and Kym. I still haven't entirely figured out what to do, but I am going to try not to worry so much about it. The few breeders that I respect in this area know how she is, so if she wants to cop a 'tude, let her. At this point, I'm just tired of worrying about it. :(

1/22/2002 3:47:00 PM

purple_stardust





What Psych-Ward do you belong to?

   

1/22/2002 5:47:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |anxious]

I actually have a headache from worrying about what to do about this breeder coming to my house. I really don't need "friends" who make me sick.

I wish Rusty would come home from work soon; I really want to play Lunar 2 for a while. I feel an overwhelming desire to kill things.

   

1/22/2002 8:34:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |annoyed]

Well, we made it through the dungeon, and the first battle with Zophar. And then we got killed in the next-to-last battle. Dammit. I'll have to go back and try it again later; fortunately I saved *after* the annoying dungeon part.

First, I must fix dinner. Rusty is having meat, which of course is ever so appealing to me now that I don't eat meat. I'm having cheese on Jewish rye. Close enough, I guess. I haven't exercised since Friday, because I've had a wicked case of cramps. Blah.

   

1/23/2002 1:03:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |excited]

Oooh, look where we're going Febuary 2: the World of Pets Expo!

   

Comments:
From: [info]wombatrat
Date: 1/24/2002 5:53:09 PM

Mmm that looks fun. In February I'm going to a pet expo too. I love expo's. Last year I took Tag :)http://superpetexpo.infozen.com/expos/event?event_id=20101&view=0
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/24/2002 9:57:27 PM

Sounds fun, Cara! I've never been to a pet expo, but I'm excited... Skip Martin is going to be there, so I want to get a couple of his travel cages and maybe a few extra shelves. :)
From: [info]wombatrat
Date: 1/25/2002 9:20:38 PM

Oh, Martin Cages looks so neat! Some day I'll have one. I heard Skip was a pretty cool guy. I hope you have fun!

1/23/2002 10:44:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |frustrated]

My lo black Chucks came in the mail today, hooray! They didn't come with laces, so I had to use the ones from my Tretorns, and now I need new laces for them. I should have measured these laces when they were out of the shoe, because I never know what length to get. Oh well.

In other news, I HATE ZOPHAR. I have tried three times to beat that bastard, and he wipes us out every time. I don't know why - my party is a level higher than what the walkthrough recommends. I'm starting to get really annoyed with this damn game.

I need to go take new pictures of my ratlets.

   

Awwwww..... 1/23/2002 5:04:00 PM

purple_stardust



   

Comments:
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/23/2002 9:45:18 PM

*squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeal!*
*squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeal!*

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
soooooooooooooooooooooooooo
cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute!!!!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/23/2002 9:51:14 PM

Do you *like* the ratlet picture, Laurie? =D
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/23/2002 10:04:55 PM

Oh, um, could you tell?

Sean saw the pictures and then he wanted a boy, but I think he wanted a boy instead of a girl, not a boy in addition to a girl. I think he is feeling down because right now we've got four girls with various sized tumors and it seems like such a widespread thing -- you have a girl, she gets a tumor. It's really depressing.

But I don't know what he decided eventually. I think it was just to stick with the girl that I already reserved. He's sleeping now so I can't really ask him. Oh well.

Anyway. Just too cute!
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/23/2002 10:43:58 PM

Well, I actually prefer boys. I always thought girls were too hyper. On the other hand, I kept ZBR Beatrix from my blue litter, and she is a lot calmer and sweeter than girls I've gotten from other breeders, so maybe it's more a matter of socialisation.

Tumours do suck; Mini and Mouse have them. I try very hard to check with other breeders in my pedigrees as far back as I can to breed rats that have no tumours in the lines, so hopefully that won't be an issue.

Either way though, it's up to you and Sean, just let me know. :)

Dinnertime 1/23/2002 8:58:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |blah]

Rusty is having pasta and meatballs. I am having American cheese on Jewish rye and a salad. Oh, whee. Somebody stop me before I have too much fun. :-P

   

Comments:
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/23/2002 9:25:13 PM

Quick, stop, before you are having so much fun your mouth explodes.
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/23/2002 9:49:17 PM

I know. It is actually difficult to describe the thrilling experience that is my dinner. Really, I cannot find the words to zzzzzzzzzz.....
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/23/2002 10:09:08 PM

If it makes you feel any better, though I don't know why it would unless you're some kind of terrible person who likes to see others suffer, my dinner was equally unappetizing.

I ate a can of tuna. Just tuna. Not a tuna sandwich, because we have no bread. Not tuna with vegetables because.... we have no bread. Not tuna and cheese because, again, no bread!

Just... tuna. Ick. I don't even really like tuna.

I wanted pizza! I've got all the ingredients to make it except for the mozzarella. Darnit!
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/23/2002 10:50:16 PM

Here's a question for you, Laurie. What is the term for someone who does not eat red meat, pork, or poultry, but does eat fish and seafood? I was talking to a friend the other day, and she said there is a term for it, but neither of us knew it.

Oh, and I *do* like tuna, but not as much as pizza!
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/23/2002 10:55:49 PM

Some people who claim to be vegetarian except that they eat fish call themselves pescovegetarians. Is that what you're thinking of?
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/23/2002 11:03:30 PM

Well I wasn't thinking of anything, I didn't know there was a word for it. Carole said there was a term for it though, so I'll ask her if that's the one she was trying to remember. Thanks!

1/24/2002 1:04:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |jubilant]
[Current Music |Lunar 2 Soundtrack]

Zophar is dead! Dead! Dead! DEAD!

   

1/24/2002 1:24:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |tired]
[Current Music |Lunar 2 Soundtrack]

One thing I really don't like about the Lunar series: NO EGRESS. Now that Zophar is dead, I'm starting on the epilogue. Unfortunately, it requires going back to places from early in the game, and I can't find most of them now. Argh! I may not even bother with the epilogue; it looks like it's pretty complex, and I really want to move on to DW7. I would tell myself that I'll finish it later, but I know as soon as I quit for a day or so, that will never happen. Ahh, what to do, what to do.

What to do, indeed. The weekend approaches rapidly, and I still haven't made any definate decision about what to do about the other breeder visiting. Much as I hate the idea, I guess the only way to get her to stop nagging me is to let her come. Bah.

   

Oooohh, PURPLE! 1/25/2002 2:01:00 PM

purple_stardust

   

1/25/2002 5:40:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |anxious]

SHE is coming to my house tomorrow, I grudgingly said okay. I already feel sick. I actually bought a bottle of wine, so hopefully I don't just sit around and freak out all evening. I wanted quaaludes, but the supermarket didn't have any. Ugh. Maybe I'll get lucky and get hit by a bus tomorrow morning.

   

1/25/2002 9:59:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |drunk]

Ya know, I used to drink a fifth of vodka per day. Now, one glass of wine, and I feel all loopy. Blech. Obviously, I am getting old.

   

1/25/2002 10:45:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |annoyed]

Had an arguement with Rusty. I asked him to vaccuum. He grumbled and whined, and then did so. Then he complains about the breeder coming here and says "there's no place for her to even sit down." I pointed out the sofa that inhabits our living room. He wildly gestures at it and points out that it is covered with crap. I come over to more closely examine the "crap". There are seven aspen shavings on the sofa. I counted. Seven aspen shavings now constitutes "covered with crap". Hello! I have more aspen than that in my HAIR at any given time.

Then he begins to bitch that the apartment is a pig sty. Fine. He may have a point. Then he points out that he can't have his parents (who live four hours away) over, because they would be "horrified." Fine. THEN he says, he can't believe that MY mother visits us, because we go to her house, and her house is clean and orderly. To which I reply "well, fortunately, MY mother doesn't judge people based on their housekeeping skills. I'm sorry that YOUR mother does!"

He has kept his mouth shut since then, fortunately for him.

   

Comments:
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/25/2002 11:23:10 PM

Sounds like you're both feeling a lot stressed about the visit tomorrow. =(
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/26/2002 7:56:28 AM

Yeah. Well, he doesn't like HER, to begin with. And he's almost as socially phobic as I am. We're a fine pair, to be sure. :-\

1/26/2002 8:05:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |anxious]
[Current Music |Nirvana - The Man Who Sold The World]

SHE will be here in five hours. Rusty already went out and got my coffee, so I've got no hope of getting hit by a truck. Damn him. The rat cages have been cleaned, and the floor vaccuumed. I'm not even worried about my cages; I know they are cleaner and less-crowded than hers. Both Rusty and another breeder say her rat room stinks. My cages are immaculate, but the apartment is a mess. Bah.

My babies are so cute, climbing all over their cage. They're turning into real rats. *sniff* When I open the door, they all come running over and climb into my hand; so cute. MY babies are well-socialised. Rusty thinks she's jealous; because she used to be the "queen rat breeder" in this area, and now people want my rats. And I have to say, my rats ARE better than hers, but it's just luck as far as the lines, and that I spend more time with them. I spend *a lot* of time with my babies.

I don't know, I'm just babbling now.

   

Our Song (picked by Rusty) 1/26/2002 9:03:00 AM

purple_stardust

[Amazing - Aerosmith]

I kept the right ones out, and let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life when I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through the pain

When I lost my grip and I hit the floor
I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door...
I was so sick n' tired of livin' a lie
I was wishing that I would die

It's amazing
With the blink of an eye
You finally see the light
Oh... It's amazing
A when the moment arrives
That you know you'll be alright

   

My song (picked by me) 1/26/2002 9:10:00 AM

purple_stardust

[I Try - Macy Gray]

Games, changes and fears, when will they go from here
When will they stop?
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together... but we're not
I play it off but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin'
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

   

1/26/2002 8:13:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |sick]

She finally left. Will write later; I have a migraine.

   

1/27/2002 6:58:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |blah]

The throbbing migraine has dissapated into a dull headache, and at this point, I'm just grateful to be able to sit up and open my eyes.

The visit. I had a headache when she got here, which got progressively worse. She stayed here for three and a half hours, despite the fact that I spent the last hour of the visit sitting here with my eyes closed, and occasionally leaving the room to throw up. I'm not sure which of us was more rude; me, for ignoring her the whole time, or her, for not getting a clue.

Other than that, it wasn't a bad visit, she played with my rats and admired my cages. She brought me a lab rat - I want to name him Sigmund, but I keep calling him Alphie.

   

1/28/2002 9:33:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |blah]

Blah, Monday. Between the visit Saturday, and the football playoffs Sunday, I played no video games this weekend. What good is a weekend, if I play no video games???

I am a bit confused about DW3. I have all my characters up to level 20, and we're at Dharma Temple, where I can change classes. I have changed my thief to a fighter, and I have found the Zen Book. The question is, what do I do with my mage and my cleric? Do I turn them both into sages now, or should I make them something else first? I do not know. I don't even know if I can turn them BOTH into sages with one Zen Book. And I don't know if I should turn my thief/fighter into something else when he gets up to level 20 again. Perhaps I should turn them all into jesters. :-P

I need to walk over and drop off some film, but I am feeling rather trifling today.

   

Hooray! 1/28/2002 9:43:00 AM

purple_stardust

Thanks to Laurie, I can now change my comments links! Which, no doubt, I will do several times per day. Customizable FUN! Thanks Laurie! =)

   

1/28/2002 11:28:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |annoyed]

I dropped my film off at the 1-hour place. Waiting now. I hate waiting. I also hate the girl who works at the 1-hour place. The last time I went in, she asked me "ya like rats?" Okay, first, this is a stupid question. I just paid way too much to have an entire roll of film developed in an hour with nothing but photos of rats. If I didn't like rats, would I take a roll of film of nothing but rats? And if I did, for whatever bizarre reason, would I want them back in an hour? So then she says "you got a boa constrictor?" When I gave her the Look of Sure and Sudden Doom, she says "well, some people do, you know, raise rats for snake food." And do they photograph them? Entire rolls of film, no less? Every week? Feh, what a twit.

But it's either this, or go to the mall. I can't wait to get a digital camera.

   

Comments:
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/29/2002 12:32:13 AM

Some people are just plain stupid.

Skunky Cuteness! 1/28/2002 5:39:00 PM

purple_stardust

Good Lord, Laurie... whatever you do, do not click HERE.

   

My new PEW for you to view! 1/28/2002 11:04:00 PM

purple_stardust

   

Comments:
From: [info]muridae
Date: 1/29/2002 1:50:22 PM

He's pretty!
From: [info]purple_stardust
Date: 1/29/2002 3:04:34 PM

Thank you! I'm rather fond of him, though my mother says that he has creepy eyes. :-P

1/29/2002 2:53:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |aggravated]

I hate Adobe Acrobat, and it pisses me off that at some point, I *have* to download the damned thing to see something. I don't know why it bugs me so much, but it does, to the point that once I see whatever it is, I'll uninstall it again. Bah!

   

1/30/2002 1:08:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |artistic]

I'm playing with Adobe Photoshop today, making a rattie valentine picture. I love Photoshop. I'm also trying to get my scrapbook stuff and photos organised, but alas, that is not so fun. AND I am working on an origami rat. Whee!

   

1/30/2002 6:00:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |sleepy]

I am sooooo sleepy. I stayed up late last night, updating my website and playing video games, and now I am paying the price. *yawn*

I have my scrapbook stuff strewn all over my living room floor, where I've started to organise it and then got bored and irritated, and ultimately left it. I need to go to Target and get some sort of small storage thingies, so I can straighten out my sissors, punches, pens, etcetera. This is my problem: anything worth doing, is worthy of my complete and total obsession.

I also need some sensible way to store photos until I get them into the scrapbook... as it is now, I have 2 computer paper boxes, one cd-burner box, 2 photo boxes, 1 shoe box, and 4 gift bags full of photos. None of them are sorted according to anything, of course. Maybe I'll stop at the craft store this weekend and get about 15 of those pretty photo boxes. Of course, I need more like 50. Ack. I take way too many photos.

   

1/31/2002 10:17:00 AM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |sleepy]

I am sooooo sleepy. I stayed up late last night, talking to Laurie and playing video games, and now I am paying the price. *yawn*

Hmmm, I seem to be making a habit of this. Oh well. We had an enlightening discussion about serial killers, human experimentation, and rat penises, and afterwards I played DW3, so I guess that's worth a little bleariness today.

Now I need to go work on my photo and valentine cards, and maybe, if I'm very productive (ha!), get some of these photos sorted and arranged. I really need to work on my website, and do my remembrance and original rat pages, but I'm not sure how I want to do them, and so I am doing nothing at all. Bah.

   

1/31/2002 1:13:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |artistic]

Wow! I actually finished my original M-Rats page! I still need to make a page for my retired breeders and a "In Remembrance" page, but then I think I will actually have my website caught up! Woo hoo!

   

1/31/2002 4:34:00 PM

purple_stardust
[Current Mood |artistic]

Today I compressed photos of my rats, marked them, uploaded them, made four new pages for my website, and updated three others. My website is actually up-to-date! All of my rats are accounted for and on the proper pages. Amazing! Look!